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So this is one of my favorite Christmas songs, the one Faith Hills sings, “Where are you Christmas?”  In some ways, that’s kinda how I feel right now.  I feel like I’ve tried really hard, listening to Christmas music all the time, baking goodies, going to Christmas parties, and even fighting traffic to go to the mall, but I’m not quite in the Christmas spirit yet.  It’s like I’m trying so hard but it just won’t happen.  Is it just me?

I am really looking forward to coming home, but really just to relax.  To have the days off.  To spend time with family.  But I’m not in the mood where every 15 minutes I get warm fuzzy feeling inside.  Hmm. 

This past weekend I went to a tacky Christmas sweater party (ever heard of them?  where everyone wears tacky Christmas sweaters?) and I had a really good time.   I have to admit, it was weird without Mark with me.  The whole time it felt like I left my cell phone or purse at home.  You know that feeling?  Anyway, I had a really good time.  The only thing that upsets me is that I was in such a hurry I had to stop at the first place I saw to get a tacky sweater and it happened to be Sam’s Club, which I was sure would have a deal.  I ended up spending $19 for a stupid and tacky Christmas sweater.

Mark decided to come home early (which I was super excited about!) and we had a great weekend.  Didn’t really do a lot, but we didn’t need to.  I think we both wanted to just relax a bit.

We did go see Four Christmases yesterday with Angie (my sister-in-law).  It was a really great movie!!  I laughed out loud.  That is definitely what I needed!

Anyway, we’re leaving tomorrow for KY and hopefully it will be a very short drive with no traffic and no pee stops!  (yeah right)

I’m trying, Christmas, I really am.  I’m ready for you to take over my heart and fill it with holiday cheer.  I’m ready!

**As a side note, and I’m sure if you’ve read my previous post you would know that, in my perspective, there is a difference in celebrating and honoring Christ’s birth versus Holiday Cheer.  I’m not really in the Holiday Cheer mode yet, but I am very personally focused on what this day symbolizes for each of us.  🙂